"Floating on the Sea of Aspirations"

An amazing observation in Quantum theory: Light, depending on how you look at it, can be seen and measured as either particle (photons) or wave, at the same time.

That has randomly come to mind this evening. I've been thinking a lot, lately (enough, in fact, to finally write a freakin new entry for the bloggo :), on a mental image of sorts that came to mind during my 420 week.. (Ha Just follow me)

I had been thinking on what it is to have dreams and aspirations, what it is to seek Truth and wisdom, or to otherwise set any other goal. Not the goodness or badness of such things.. But the nature of them.. What it is, this force that so eagerly pulls us in by urging every man and even every child into having a dream to focus on - a light at the end of some tunnel. I've deliberated on this for some reason for quite a while, now.. One of those random things where there might have been a thought in a dream, or a whisper of a lusty secret to life, or anything.. The point is, it ended up being the thought that every song, inspirational tweet or conscious word brought to my mind via this image. After a while it seemed to lend a visual to yet another facet of my perspective.. You'll forgive me if in my following attempt to portray this image here I horribly fail.. Ha. If this is so then I hope at least that you see the idea behind my words.

Picture a man on a boat on the sea. See this man ride the open waters, solely focused on and directed toward the light of this impossibly bright star. It is a cold night and the waters churn but even at his most desperate he pushes that damned boat through those seas, guided by his aspiration. His Light. Be it fame or fortune or Truth or happiness, or Love or religion; man is born to seek out and bask in his own Light. Imagine if you will, this man on this boat (I'd recommend applying your Selves to this mental image - me, personally, I see this Moses-like character ha), in this cold, dark night, standing fast against forceful winds with malicious and bitter intentions, that blow only to drive him away from his Light and his Way. To be enfolded and caressed into death by the darkness. Look upon this cold and lonely and battered man with all the love and compassion and respect that you (ought) pay yourSelf for the travels on your seas for all of your years.

Now, as this image develops within you, consider all that there is that you are impassioned by, and on those nights when there's nothing but darkness that surrounds you, is it not too your Star that you look to for direction? For Hope? For your next heartbeat? Recall how Focused you were/are on that Light - as only a plant knows to love the Sun, you know to love your Star. So your eyes become transfixed, as do those of the man battling those seas. And in contrast with the light of his loftiest ambitions, the world surrounding him falls ever darker and more sinister..

But here's the thing - as we step back from the plight of this weathered man to gain some new perspective, there's something to note that perhaps he cannot. As you step back and look upon the waters surrounding him, they seem much less sinister... Indeed, these waters are not as murky as he sees, and in fact reflect all the light of his beloved, in every direction surrounding him.. And lo! The winds blow and fill his sails and serve to unnerve and displace, but not to his demise and utter undoing - he has even learned to better control and navigate.

I remember when I was 7 years old I decided what I wanted with my life. I didn't want to be famous, not being the largest fan of the idea. All I wanted.. Well, was to be omniscient. Ha! I wanted to know "every single thing there is to Know" when I grew up. It's a pretty big driving force to who I am and how I come to understand things. So this image of sorts (that I really wish I could paint) has hit me pretty sideways as perhaps a notice of some sort of growth in my thinking: If Truth is my Star, then I'll sail these seas for all of my years in pursuit of that devotion, never thinking to look around on the seas I traverse to see and be amongst all that I've sought - Truth(, Love,Faith Happiness - insert drug of choice, here) shines refracted on the lick of every splash and wave these waters hold.

And in the end your Light is just like a mirage, anyway - a ghost of your hopes of a brighter daylight in the seemingly not too far distance. The Oasis in the desert is a figment of your imagination based on the manipulations of your deepest desperations on misconstrued visual information, and as you step closer and reach out, it dissolves away into the sands of all that is and all that has ever been. So too is it with the man and his Star - to try to grasp it means to clasp only the waters that surround him.

And I think that's a pretty damned Beautiful thing.

That Light isn't meant to be captured and imprisoned - it is You, and it is Free - forever and brilliantly reflected as the Light that guides you along your Way. And as you come to meet your aspirations and Grow, so too shall the Light within that guides and further illuminates the waters you float upon. So - I guess the point of this whole exercise is to say... Well, look around, not just forward and certainly not just backward..

Just Look..
It's the most amazing thing, Ever, no?

Your Light touches Everything.

Peace,
Cory

Haikuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!

A list of Haiku from twitter (@coreman2200):
The Air is light, free ~ The Sea flows, seeking balance ~ The Stone, tangible..

~The Air

Floating boundless seas ~ expecting chaos , to find ~ flow and harmony #haiku

A breeze takes the Leaf ~ not cursing the winds embrace ~ whilst carried to death #haiku

Oh, the troubled sea ~ turbulent, ever ready ~ to return to Peace #haiku

The blind man looks up ~ finding no sky that IS blue ~as will he that sees #haiku

flowers in the Sky ~ not in form but in Essence ~ on a cool, light Breeze #haiku

I'm each shining star ~ and all our soul's reflected ~ in every last breath #haiku
 
A lens so fragile ~ that to peer through thoughtfully ~ warps the whole picture #haiku




~The Sea

Guide me to the Noon ~ dear shadow of yester's Eve ~ I shall lead til Dusk #haiku

Now ignites always ~ into before.. thereafter ~ forever's Big Bang #haiku

Set alight a candle ~ watch light and dark dance and sway ~ as were they lovers #haiku

All that one does own ~ as true now as forever ~ he will not pay for #haiku

Light is just a Part ~ there is also the darkness ~ that helps define us #haiku

taking a step back ~ the darkest blights bring contrast~ to The masterpiece #haiku

Dance in our season ~ to our harmonious Light ~ as though our waves Sing #haiku  



~The Stone

We live in today ~ looking over our shoulders ~ to blame yesterday #haiku

I am a Free man ~ not for the lack of your chains ~ but the lack of Mine #haiku

sing of tragedy ~ take my mind and bitter heart ~ to where they feel safe #haiku

dancing with shadows ~ romantically entwined ~ as Light sits and waits #haiku

Food's stirred with malice ~ tainting all that sustains us ~ with poisonous thoughts #haiku

drawing lines in sand ~ warring against them for rocks ~ at a mountain's feet #haiku

So blind is the man ~ who looks into a mirror ~ and sees not himSelf #haiku
  

"A Brief Thought" Series - #1

Ok, so the first of the series is a thought I had last night that I feel that amongst trying to relate via Twitter's 140, I hugely failed at accomplishing.. lol So here I am. A very quick back story, I watched "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" for the first time, Finally, last night. I thought the movie was rather brilliant. The emotionality of the presentation of such an amazing concept struck me at my core; I felt it.. I hurt a bit.. A good bit. Ha.

So with me having been seeking some sort of balance within me, and such pain being a very.. Different experience from that neutrality that I've sought, I thought on the pain (and really, a way for it to just go away). The thought then came to me:

Do you feel this pain? Can you place it? Yes, that is it.. Now cherish that feeling in that space, Cory. Because forever before and forever beyond this moment you are Infinite - you are truly One with the fabric of all energy and all things. So take this all in, and love it all, for this is your time as your Self to experience this; via your senses, through your perspective. For all that one could imagine good or bad, you've the chance now, in This One Life, to taste of it, feel of it, to partake..

The pain didn't go away, as I realized that it'd be cruel to me to ask it to.. But in that one thought, my understanding of that pain changed completely. I had never been so happy with what I felt, irrelevant of what the emotion was - just because I felt it so very necessary to acknowledge the blessing that such an experience was to have.. I've this one life to live in the world as I See fit.. See.. And it seems so trite and ridiculous, upon thinking about it this way, to narrow my view to only how "I don't like" the pain, or any other thing.. As long as I am here, I will find within every frame something to love.

A new series: "A Brief Thought"

So I've decided that I may randomly add quick thoughts that I have. I'll usually have these thoughts that just Hit me, with such force that I feel inclined to share them. But they're usually too long to the Twitter format, and not long enough for a full-on blog. So I'll just leave brief thoughts, instead. If it so grows into a full blog then so be it, naturally. Just want to have yet another means of writing out my journey, in case some spark might be lost to the darkness of my (very) lacking memory.. lol


Thoughts & Bests,
Cory

Divides Provide A Side To Blame

I've been thinking quite a bit this past week, what with twitter (@coreman2200 for those whom are somehow unaware :) and sad news and catastrophic events.. I've had a lot to ponder about the nature of some certain many things.. A lot of questions. I've been led to ask myself, for example, this question quite a bit: Why as a species are we so reactionary? Why do we always seem to be healing from the last thing that came down the turnpike, instead of placing our efforts towards setting into motion some sort of positive actions to which such a negative Reaction isn't to be feared? 

On the morning that we on the east coast rose to the news about the earthquake in Chile, when people were harping on about the end of days and 2012, there were quite a few people that shared a sentiment of this nature: 

"Well this is just God showing us who's boss.."

And things of such a nature.. I don't like the idea of saying that I was sickened by this - everyone's entitled to their own opinions and everyone is subject to their own interpretations and truths.. But sickened I was, all the same. I'm not a believer of any book of religion in totality - a topic perhaps for another blog when my thoughts are clearer and words more wisely chosen on such an awfully 'touchy' subject - but when 700+ people are dying/dead because of a natural disaster that we've all in small or large part contributed to and you take to saying your God was just letting us all know, "Hey guys, I'm still up here, let me just use this earthquake button right here to prove it to you"... I think of that as the greatest cop-out.. The most disgusting use of belief and religion and faith, and a gross display of either utter ignorance or the outright denial of our role in whatever this world is or is becoming.

I thought about this, and some myriad of other influential ponderings, and I finally found what seemed to be the question I was driving at all along: Why are we as a species, a peoples, a nation, whathaveyou, so inclined to first separate ourselves from the issues we all share, and the people we share them with, then find someone else or some otherworldly entity to blame for the outcome? 

The Earth didn't decide to just say "fuck it" and start shifting under our feet for kicks, shits and giggles. It happens because some other event or group of events led to it. Maybe the polar ice caps melting? Maybe the water levels rising? Hell, maybe we knew this was coming down the pike a good while ago and thought "well we'll just cross that bridge when we get to it" because doing what was necessary to avoid it was more costly to those who possibly could than the lives lost in these travesties? And guess what, just because it happened in Haiti or Chile or off the coast of Japan, or California (if that's not close enough to home for us all, here), doesn't mean that it won't affect us all. The world's too small for it not to affect us all. And no, I can't bring myself to even think that an Omnipotent, Omniscient, and Omnipresent God would think with such a small and human concept of vengeance and pettiness and utter disregard for life as to set into motion the chain of events that would produce these natural disasters. And if you do, if you honestly do believe that... What else is there to say? I'd just think that's worthy of some thought..

I think that the problem is that we seek an enemy, we seek a face, we seek a body - to represent our failings as to avoid taking ownership of what we've enabled or caused through our own string of events. I don't mean this solely in the realm of natural disaster, no. I tend to think that something is more True if it applies to a much wider realm of concepts. We can blame the black kid that steals, deals, and kills, because it's easier than taking credit for his family starving. For not uplifting that child out of such hostility and desperation. For not doing a better job of teaching that child and all like him/her that there are much better ways and much loftier ambitions to attain/consider. Any prior generation can blame the world's woes on the coming one for being brain dead, or careless, or unable to think, or whatever you want - but not take credit for feeding them 'knowledge' and saying "Just cuz" when they decide to ask "Why". Or giving them a book to look at the words and remember the words and recite the words, but not understanding the message behind the words, the sentiment within the words, or the fact that without considering either, they are Just words.

We can blame TV and big companies for pushing nonsensical constructs into our heads that alter our truths and warp our realities, because we don't take credit for watching the nonsense, buying the nonsense, acting out the nonsense, entertaining the nonsense, or putting the money towards these ideals and feeding that machine. And you can even blame others saying, "Oh, but that's them, though - I'm conscious and I don't do any of that ish" but just as it ends up being all of our problem, I truly believe it is all of our doing. If we are unwilling to facilitate a more positive and Honest view of our world, then we're going to keep floating away on clouds of little white lies.. And when those clouds dissipate, as they always do, the farther the fall back downnnnnnn towards solid Truth, all the more painful it is.. May we all pray that the fall not be so far down that we cannot bare that inevitable collision.

We're all connected. We all share the same outcome. Together, as a force, we are absolutely unstoppable.. So Please, resist stopping, just to point a finger. Stop looking for someone to blame for kicking over your edifice of blocks instead of working to have built a stronger and more durable structure. Stop finding difference.. Stop creating schisms.. For although your hand has fingers and your foot has toes your heart has a beat, they are all you. And though your enemy has different skin or a history spanning behind his and your generation, they are too more defined By you and what you wish to see than anything else, and thus but one facet of your very own reflection. We all shall rise together; we too, regardless of how separate you are from your "enemy", shall fall together, if we don't do something.

These are just my thoughts.. I do welcome your's..

Can You Hear My Tweet's Echo?

Just some musings that I thought to throw together from a timeline rant. May serve me well to better relate these ideas into more than 140-character blips at some point in time, but I feel assured that the message all the same hits quite effectively in such a format. I'll ask that we all consider these thoughts - I mean, that's all that they are - you can do with them what you will from there.. I am just overjoyed to have yet another opportunity to express to you my point of view... However flawed :)

The most profound Truths will apply to the most things. If the facade of reality is separation and partiality, what is Truth that is defined as such?
For those seeking wisdom, seeking peace, seeking knowledge- it would seem Wise to consider that framing of all things..
So many of our truths are based on these dividing concepts, these spacial constructs, these segregated perceptions..
Not seeing that You may perhaps be the breakdown between us All into parts. Parts you've the eye to distinguish but not truly See..
People you've the force and stance to hate but not the patience and will to Understand..
Minds you've the ability to wrongly classify as either conscious or not. Alive or dead. Wake or sleep.
Why are we so eager to find/define an enemy, yet so unable to see that we are equally defined in so doing?
Why are we then so incapable of seeing the direct link and bond that lies therein?
I speak to my black brothers/sisters, whom so focus on their distaste for their description of their enemy that they not see their reflection.
The passion that we exude is precious and at All times the very most beautiful thing I could ever imagine. I bare witness to glory each day.
But you've got to wake up, sometime. You've got to see that you/we/them/us/All the One won't get anywhere with such thinking.
You define them through your perception, and thusly your very physical and real self is defined; again - through them.
Where is the Self in that?? Who are You, BEYOND the Hater of Them. The Hater of Their Ideals or Their Greed or Their Trespasses. Who Are YOU?
My love for you helps me See you. If I were blind to your experience then I am blind to ALL pain and All trespass.
But my passion to love you makes me just want to shake the Shit out of a lot of you, sometimes. If only to blur your sight, gain you a new focus.
You'll express more distaste than you will love, and soon lose sight of love completely. Then, what and where will your purpose have gone?
If you believe in a Devil - that's Exactly what he does. Guide you to hate.
As I see it, though, the Devil is as much Us as God is. You are both to praise and to blame. To revere and to condemn.
There's as much sadness in this world as you'll imagine.... And so, too, is there joy. Irrelevant of the circumstances behind either state..
You just have to Choose to fucking see it..
I don't know about you, but I abhor the idea that my future children will grow up where hate and disparity are used for "Good"... It Never works..
Perhaps I need a gray beard however, to spout the most simple yet significant of Truths.. We're just so much more and so much better than this..
Stop Hitting YourSelf. Stop Hating YourSelf. Stop Fighting YourSelf. Realize YOU ARE Yourself. Love Yourself. Practice Unity WithIn & Out of Yourself.
No one does well to fight against himself.. His being. He who loses himself loses all. Have you Lost Yourself to the concept of your "enemy"?
Do you love yourself through hating 'Them'? Can you? And by loving yourself unconditionally, can you Still not feel any closeness to 'Them'?

#LeSigh.... I just want you all to be Free.. United in ambitious search for Self Truth, not in Defense from some hateful distant mirage...

My Take On The "Consistent Mind"

These are some 'simple' musings brought to consideration by a dear friend - this is a moreso detailed version of the conversation as it played out via first an email, then Twitter (Me) :)

"Is it possible that the mind lives constantly. Psychoanalytic, multi-minded, triple life living human/creature beings?"

Me: Thoughts- If not the mind I'm sure that some form or essence of the spirit of a man lives on eternally and beyond the boarders of his current or original form.. Maybe a replica of the rhythm that his soul sang too exists even after the last wave leaves him?

@joskidiesel So would you say that the mind is tangible? Or can be? Can I put urs in a bottle?? For duplicating?

Me: Whilst jumpin in n out of dreamland I thought about this question quite a bit.. Seems rather complex ha. Here are my findings: 

- I certainly think the mind is tangible. I consider it the part of your human vessel that computes the consciousness of your Self for you to present to the world. 

- But I think too that from birth the forces present, from the people around you to where the planets and stars are positioned have some affect on How you think and Who you are.. So even if I were born again with all of my old thoughts and memories, but born near say Jupiter, would that not have some baring on How I analyze things? I wouldn't imagine that I'd have the same rhythm to my being.. same Self.

@joskidiesel So are you saying that the mind is tangible, which makes Self, but Self is circumstantial, dependent on many factors, and not able to duplicate?

Me: The Mind is tangible, and physical, yes, but Self and soul are not, and I don't feel as though the mind makes the Self. Yes, Self is to me seemingly 'circumstantial' but that's more in regards to the energies affected not so particularly the physical being those energies compose. Thus without some mastery of time and space, unable to be replicated. The mind is just a means to physically express the potential of that energy in a Universe of similarly combined/composed energy. 

@joskidiesel So its more a representation, than a single entity?

Me: I'd probably say just a means of translation. Potential for your potential energy to present itself in beautiful 'real', physical fashion.. 

Obviously I don't Know anymore than anyone else lmao.. But I guess that's just how I'd see it..